Dear Arm,
Please stop hurting. Its been two years and 7 months since you were broken. Its been two years and 3 months since I had surgery. Its time to stop.
I don’t appreciate the fact that every time I lift up my arm I feel a sharp pain.
No, not an annoying, “oh, this is sore” pain. But a sharp pain. A pain that makes me cringe. A pain thats makes me want to cry a little.
I can only deal with one pain at a time.
I understand. Maybe I am sleeping on my left shoulder more. But it hurts on my right side.
Don’t you know, I have a bone tumor in my hip. A tumor thats causing me pain. A tumor thats hurting more and more and I still can’t see a specialist until August 22nd.
Don’t you know that I am already stressed out. I am getting my first cold sore in 5 years, from the stress. Don’t you know I am trying very hard to keep it together.
Don’t you know that bone tumors are rare. Rare and hard to treat.
Don’t you know that I am just hoping its nothing.
Why do you have to hurt.
Its not just one day, its been like 3 weeks. What the fuck? Give me a damn break already.
I am just trying to get through the day.
