I realized my life is in a constant cyclical pattern.
For a few months I will be obsessed with music. Then I will stick to my new 10 ten bands and listen to thenm over and over again for a year.
For a few months I will be obsessed about writing, updating a blog, creating short stories. And then it will just stop.
For a few months I will be obsessed with playing the piano. Learning cords, practicing songs. And then I get stuck on a song and give up.
It never ends. I guess I am a quitter.
I cannot stick with a hobby.
But my brain does not work like that. I need motivation and inspiration. I need something to keep me going. AND on top of the constant stimulous, I am moody. My emotions go up and down. I might hit two weeks of depression and stop everything.
It will take me another month to crawl out of that depression-and I have to start all projects over.
I am a quitter.
But at least I don’t quit people.
I wish I could.
I wish you would get out of my day dreams. I would I could stop loving you or you or you. Why can’t I just drop a friend or a boyfriend like I drop everything else?
