Dear Arm,
Please stop hurting. Its been two years and 7 months since you were broken. Its been two years and 3 months since I had surgery. Its time to stop.
I don’t appreciate the fact that every time I lift up my arm I feel a sharp pain.
No, not an annoying, “oh, this is sore” pain. [...]
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Please.
Posted in injury, life, tagged pain on August 13, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Fucking Doctors
Posted in insanity, life on July 23, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
My hip started hurting about a month and a half ago.
During physical therapy, I had to do some random stretch.
“I kinda feel a pinch”
“Stop then”
Then the pinch did not go away. It just kept hurting.
I went to the Doctor, she said I strained my groin. Take some ibruprofen, it should be fine in [...]
A Romance Movie
Posted in dating, depression, insanity, life on July 10, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I want to wallow in my bitterness and fear. Its safer there.
I can sit at home alone, afraid of falling in love. Never taking a risk. Never giving myself fully to anyone.
It hurt to much last time. It hurt so much.
And in my imagination, my future love will save me from my isolation. He will [...]
The Loneliest Moment in the World
Posted in insanity, life, tagged depression on July 8, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
The loneliest moment in the world is when you wake up at 4 am while in the depth of depression.
When you are depressed, sleep is an escape. A great 8 hours free from sadness. Free from thoughts of suicide. It is one of the few sweet reliefs from agony. But nothing is worse than waking [...]
But I noticed
Posted in life on June 25, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Its funny, how you can walk past something every day and never notice it?
Its part of your life, your bedroom, your neighborhood, your world, and yet you never notice.
How can I walk down the street everyday and never see that window. How can I sleep in my bed every night and never notice the cracks [...]
Insomnia
Posted in dating, insanity, life on June 4, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I cannot sleep on most nights purely because my mind will not stop thinking. The wheels keep churning and thoughts jump from one to the next.
<u>For example last night I thought about:</u>
Instances of depression in my life, which lead to
Anti Depressants I have taken, which lead to
The weight I gained every time I took [...]
Strangers
Posted in ex boyfriends, life on June 3, 2008 | 1 Comment »
Sometimes the simple words of strangers penetrate into your soul.
You love him but you have too much pride to call him.
Man Caves
Posted in insanity, life on June 2, 2008 | 1 Comment »
This is the most absurd thing I have ever read:
http://www.cnn.com/2008/LIVING/personal/05/02/mantuary.marriage/index.html
I am a woman, and I think its absurd that a man has to hide his things away in the basement.
What happened to equality? Equality means the woman has to also give up decorating.
Stupidity.
The whole world is stupid.
Life is a Silly Game
Posted in insanity, life on May 26, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Life is a silly game, a catch 22, the grass is greener somewhere else, you never get what you want, and things always go wrong.
Things always go wrong.
And I can only laugh. I can only laugh when I get 6 phone calls from the boy I am NOT interested in and the boy I am [...]
You, Me, and Everyone We Know.
Posted in insanity, life, tagged life, thoughts on May 22, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Sometimes I look around at the world and wonder, is this really my life.
As I am sitting on the stairs of my backyard, looking at the rolling houses in San Francisco.
Is this really where I live?
As I am riding my bicycle with 30 other people.
Did I really create this?
As I am driving down the rode.
Is [...]
